Its the time of year where kids are getting on yellow buses. More than once someone has asked my kids what grade they are going into, if school is starting and they stare at them bewildered unable to answer. I feel the same way when people ask what we are doing for homeschool.

Its been a year, I should have this right? I don’t know what we a doing. I don’t have a plan. I feel like I should. I feel like I should be doing better, I should be doing more. I should have more activies and books, tea time, morning baskets.

The truth is we do stuff. Managed to make it to the 4h science class, we go to homeschool coop, we watch documentaries and do experiments. I just feel like it’s not enough i should be doing more. There is all the pressure to be the best homeschool mom can be. The perceived pressure of others watching and judging the choices I make, how “on track” or “behind” my kids are.

This year is different in that I am also in class and on campus. I have more to shift between layers of deadlines and papers. Then there is work that has gotten harder and so I must adjust my expectations and be gentle with myself.